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Posts tagged 'fear'

In the Court of Fear

Monday, April 12th, 2010

Some days I feel like fear dictates my life. It colours everything, taints every thought. It makes my heart race at the thought of doing the simplest things, it creates fantasies in my head that seem so believable when fear has the reins. I am in the grip of it now, but I find myself [...]

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Battling the demons of doubt

Sunday, August 30th, 2009

I sit at the top of a hill, battered and bloody from battle. My calloused hands are trembling, my left arm is limp at my side, the shield beneath it bent out of recognition. My sword arm is shaking, the muscles spent. I am exhausted. I survey the scene below me, the demons dead and [...]

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One writer’s dream

Wednesday, July 15th, 2009

I’m impatient. Once I make a decision, I want it all to have happened yesterday. Perhaps it’s because so much of my energy goes into the decision that it feels like there should be more in the world to show for it. But no, only a flimsy, invisible internal change has been made. Nothing solid, [...]

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Dear scared bit,

Monday, March 23rd, 2009

I know something is bothering you because I am feeling grumpy and unable to settle to any writing. I’m old enough now to realise that when I feel this way for no apparent reason, there’s Stuff going on underneath. So I thought I’d write you a letter, and then let this percolate a bit, to [...]

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Writing fearlessly

Tuesday, January 6th, 2009

Many wonderful, clever passionate people have written so much about fearless writing that I hardly feel qualified or worthy of writing post even called this. So this post isn’t going to tell you how to do that, because I am still figuring it out myself.  If you want to get help on that front, I [...]

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